Run, don't walk, to your nearest bookstore

or order online a copy of "Lessons from the Fat-o-sphere: quit dieting and declare a truce with your body" by Kate Harding and Marianne Kirby. This is a great book to read to start on your journey to body acceptance. I rate it right up there with Fat! So?: Because You Don't Have to Apologize for Your Size by Marilyn Wann as a book that will radically change teh way you think about your body.